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  Blizu / Byuu Samoubojstvo

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Pregled

Blizu / Byuu Samoubojstvo odnosi se na događaj od 28. lipnja 2021., gdje je rečeno da je kreator BSNES emulatora, poznat kao Byuu ili Near online, oduzeo sebi život nakon što je okrivio Farme kivija korisnici za internetsko zlostavljanje ih. Iako je Byuu patio od različitih bolesti, ova je vijest iznenadila mnoge diljem weba, što je rezultiralo širokom raspravom o njegovoj smrti. Dugogodišnji lik u emulaciji, arhiviranju videoigara i online forumima, Byuu je imao i pristaše i klevetnike na internetu.

Pozadina

Byuu je prvi počeo raditi na emulatoru za Super Nintendo Emulation System još 2004. godine. Nakon sedam godina rada, emulator koji je nazvan 'BSNES' bio je pri kraju i smatran je najtočnijim emulatorom za SNES u to vrijeme. Odatle su nastavili postati tour de force za oponašanje kao i retro igrica u cjelini, jer su započeli proces arhiviranja mnogih starih, rijetkih video igara. U procesu nabave mnogih rijetkih igara za potrebe arhiviranja, pojavila se zabrinutost da Byuu neće dijeliti arhive s drugima i da je u biti gomilao mnoge igre koje nikada neće biti javno objavljene na internetu, što je dovelo do kontroverzi među nekim ljubiteljima retro igara. To u kombinaciji sa stalnim pritiskom drugih na mreži dovelo je do objave objavljene 12. prosinca 2014. na njihovoj web stranici byuu.org koju sami hostiraju [1] u kojem su govorili o depresiji i pogoršanom zdravlju (prikazano u nastavku, kliknite za proširenje).


  Depresija Prošle godine, I've become increasingly disillusioned and unhappy that my only really serious talent is in computer programming. Everything else I try and excel at goes absolutely nowhere. My studying has been off and on, but I realize that I've spent the last fifteen years of my life drawing and studying Japanese. I'm getting old, and my health is starting to fail. And yet my drawings look like something a ten year old would make, and I sound completely retarded whenever I try and say anything in Japanese. This is insane. It makes my physically ill to think about. Even if by some miracle, I mastered both of these tomorrow, half of my productive life in using these tools has been permanently lost, and I can never reclaim that time. At this rate, I won't be skilled in either before I am too old to do anything anymore. I'm going to end up dying almost entirely with regrets. I'm so fucking tired of it all. No amount of studying or practice ever seems to lead to any meaningful improvement. These human brains, especially mine, are so unbelievably fucking terrible. Intelligent design my god damned ass. It is absolutely absurd that to memorize a single word, I have to drill on it literally thousands of times before my brain takes the fucking hint. And by the time I do it, I've pushed two other words that I used to know out. Nobody would design something so unbelievably stupid, cruel and frustrating, unless they were a sadist. But I won't ever give up: I'm just going to have to go completely insane on it and dedicate every last free hour I have to them. Life isn't worth living if we can no longer better ourselves. This will be probably the longest shot I've ever taken, but .. if anyone out there is fluent in Japanese (as in, not "I took a college course once and I have a Japanese girlfriend"), and is willing to chat with me about anything, I would truly appreciate that more than words could express. I'd be happy to return the favor with lessons on English, programming, emulation, reverse engineering, ROM hacking or server administration. I need someone to have actual communication with. But I know what a tall order that is: who would want to talk to someone they could barely understand, right? It drives me up the wall trying to listen to people who can't speak English, so it's only fitting that the reverse would apply to me. It's not that I choose to be annoyed by bad English, yet it's still karmic justice, right? Font

Nakon ovog posta na blogu, došlo je do raznih incidenata s kolegama članovima retro gaminga, emulacije, razvoja igara, trans i krznen zajednice tijekom sljedećih nekoliko godina, koji su prikupljeni i dokumentirani kao način da se Byuu pretvori u a lolcow .

Kontroverzna nit

U prvim izvješćima o samoubojstvu krivica se pripisuje web stranici Kiwi Farms, koja je zloglasna po tome što se bavi lolcows. To je zato što je sama Kiwi Farms započela kao wiki za Chris-Chan , tako da je temelj zajednice izgrađen na maltretiranju lolcows.

Dana 14. svibnja 2018. korisnik Kiwi Farmsa objavio je dugačku objavu na forumu u kojoj je detaljno opisao Byuuov online život i nekoliko kontroverzi tijekom godina, prikazujući ih u manje nego pozitivnom svjetlu. Pošta [dva] sama se povezuje na brojne primjere Byuua u divljini, kao i daje konačni sud o njima dok objavljuje veze na svaki račun povezan s njima. Nit je trajala dvije godine, a korisnici su u njoj neredovito objavljivali postove sve do 7. veljače 2020., kada je Byuu objavio odgovor na nit. Odgovor [3] Byuu se uglavnom složio s nekim finijim točkama objave i priznao da se ponekad ponašaju na mreži dok pozivaju druge da ih ismijavaju (prikazano u nastavku, kliknite za proširenje).


  7. veljače 2020. Izdvajam DD E #103 N Uzdah, budući da sam jučer zajebao posao, pa protiv zdrave prosudbe,'ll post here once. I've been wanting to thank the OP for a while anyway. You can verify me by my signup e-mail if you want. Look, I'm the first to admit that I'm a joke of a person. I spent half my life reverse engineering video game systems. That's *weird*, but no one else was going to do it as thorougly, and I've helped improve all SNES emulators, not just mine. At least it's a little tiny bit useful to society, and lets people have a bit of fun reliving their childhoods. It could be much worse. But it doesn't give me a pass to act like a sperg online. You're most welcome to observe and laugh at me. I only interacted yesterday because not 30 minutes after making my new Twitter handle, my notifications started having your accounts popping up in them, and my referral logs were showing your thread link. (By the way, consider adding noreferrer to your outbound links to be less conspicuous. Or don't, I'm not your dad.) Near Throwaway O Font

Byuu kasnije nastavlja u komentaru da priznaje prošle kontroverze i čak ide tako daleko da kaže hvala originalnom posteru što je napravio temu, jer je djelovao kao 'poziv na buđenje'. Byuu je tada rekao [3] da će podržati dijeljenje teme i da će osobno podnijeti protutužbu ako je ospori bilo koja pravna agencija, i reći da nema ljutnje na objavu (prikazano u nastavku, kliknite za proširenje).


  ja'm not going to condone anything here, but honestly . I appreciate that this thread was made. I really do. It put all my bullshit in one place and it was a bit of a wake-up call for me. I'm not perfect, but I've been trying to get my shit together as much as I could these past two years now. I'm not going to dismiss my friends, or those who happen to be trans, or furry, or on the spectrum, or whatever it is you guys dislike to fit in here. So I'm sure it's never going to be good enough. I *do* dismiss anyone who hurts another child or animal, though. Putting those people in jail is the one thing I support from here. I took the valid criticisms to heart and I've been making changes. I took down my old articles, I stay out of politics and online arguments, and I'm keeping my head down and staying productive instead. I'm working on making software now that people don't hate, and that aren't filled with my own bizarre hangups. I'm trying to pass on my knowledge so that someone can take the torch when I'm gone. So sincerely, and only in my case and no one else's, thank you for the wake-up call here OP. No hard feelings. I'm not asking you to take it down, and I know you never would anyway. Keep it. Mirror it. Put it on a titanium disk and ship it into space. I'll own all of my mistakes. If you ever get a DMCA or GDPR request or some bullshit on this, it's not me. Send me an e-mail and I'll counter-claim it myself. People do impersonate me (eg on Stormfront), so keep your guard up against any false flagging or white knighting, please. I support free speech absolutely, even when it's speech I don't like, because silencing it only makes things worse. I even defended Tom in the recent Goemon translation controversy, knowing that'd lose me support among my friends. And I'll lose a lot of support by simply posting here at all. So be it. Organism Font

Posljedica

Unatoč ovom očitom prihvaćanju teme, kada je objavljeno samoubojstvo, isprva su bile okrivljene Kiwi Farms. To se vidi u početnom YCombinator postu. Pošta, [4] pod naslovom 'Bsnes autora Byuua maltretirao do samoubojstva od strane KiwiFarms' je a Google Drive dokument koji je postavio korisnik endlessmike. Dokument [5] je detaljan izvještaj na dvije stranice u kojem se Kiwi Farms stalno spominje kao izvor stresa i sukoba s Byuuom, pod nazivom Blizu, a završava potpisom iz 'Marcana'.

Objavljeno u ime zajedničkog prijatelja Neara i mene, koji želi ostati anoniman radi vlastite zaštite. – Marčan

A Cvrkut račun pod istim imenom, @Marcan42, također je tweetao dokument i dugu nit o Byuu. U temi, [6] Marcan je rekao da su razgovarali s policijom kako bi potvrdili Byuuovu smrt, da neće biti odgovoreno na daljnja pitanja i da je Near izrazio želju da se dobrotvorne akcije i donacije ne daju u njihovo ime (prikazano dolje, kliknite za proširenje).


  Hector Martin @marcan42 · 28. lipnja Odgovaranje @marcan42 Razgovarao sam s policijskim odjelom zaduženim za istragu i oni su potvrdili da je Near preminuo jučer, 27. lipnja 2021. Zbog poštovanja njihove privatnosti, neću tražiti sve dodatne informacije. Molim te nemoj't ask. 40 17 174 973 Hector Martin @marcan42 · 23h ... Every single person involved/aware did their best to save Near's life at every point in time given the information they had access to at the time. We failed. 31 27 42 610 Hector Martin @marcan42 · 20h ... Since this has come up privately a few times: I've been told that Near's wishes were for donation drives and similar fundraising campaigns to never happen in their name. Thank you. 2 17 44 424 Font Screenshot Parallel

Ova nit, u kombinaciji s dokumentom i objavom vijesti YCombinatora, dovela je do bijesa protiv farmi kivija krajem lipnja 2021. Ovaj bijes je viđen u Cvrkut sama nit dok su ljudi koji su odgovarali pokušavali pronaći domaćina farmi kivija u pokušaju da ih skinu s Internet na sličan način kao 8chan . Na ove pozive na akciju na kraju je odgovoreno, jer je Kiwifarms postao meta a DDOS kampanju, čime je web stranica prestala raditi 28. lipnja.

Kiwijev odgovor

Budući da Kiwifarms nije funkcionirao, jedini način da se poruka prenese ljudima bila je stranica s pogreškom. Vlasnik Kiwija, Josh, objavio je opširnu objavu na stranici s pogreškama Kiwija u kojoj je naveo nekoliko stvari prije nego što je iznio optužbe na kraju.

Na njegovoj stranici pogreške, [7] koji je sada nevidljiv jer je DDOS kampanja završila, Josh tvrdi da su navodi da je Byuu mrtav sumnjivi, navodeći da nitko ne zna njihovu istinu doks i da ne postoje nikakvi drugi dokazi koji pokazuju vezu između Kiwijeve niti i navodnog samoubojstva osim Marcanove objave na Twitteru i Google Doca koji priznaje da je račun treće strane. Zatim nastavlja s arhiviranim poveznicama, e-porukama i objavama u temama koje pokazuju Byuua kao agresora u ovome, i nadalje tvrdi da Byuu glumi ovo samoubojstvo kako bi pokušao iznuditi Kiwi Farms i natjerati ga da se zauvijek zatvori (prikazano u nastavku, lijevo i desno, kliknite za proširenje).


  KIWI FARMS Pozdrav! Netko trenutno plaća novac za DoS napad na forum. Iako su farme kivija i sve na njima legalno, DoS napadi su federalni zločin. Možda tražite informacije o Byuu / Near. Budući da mogu definirati ovu stranicu pogreške, upotrijebit ću je za prijenos nekih informacija. Ako ti're a regular, I promise the site will be back up this week, probably sooner rather than later. A Twitter user published a Google Doc explicitly blaming the Kiwi Farms for harassing Byuu. No evidence of this harassment exists. Byuu had a 13 page thread on the forum. Byuu participated in this thread. You can read the thread in archives here. 13 pages on the Kiwi Farms is an extremely small amount of discussion, especially for a thread as old as Byuu's. Last year, Byuu said in this thread directly that he was not affected by the thread in any way. You can read the archive here and here. The document claims that Byuu took his own life. No evidence of this exists. The person claiming to know he has died refuses to elaborate or provide evidence. The last call with Byuu described in the accusation does not make sense. Consider that this person is supposedly an real life friend of Byuu (when Byuu also claims he had no real life friends), and consider that he did nothing for half an hour, but could remember the call well enough to describe an obscure French metal song playing in the background. This is a ridiculous story. It does not pass any level of scrutiny and is not told in a way that makes sense. Byuu has a history of accusing people of stalking and harassing him. He made a post on his forum (which has since been deleted) accusing a rival emulator developer named Squarepusher from Retroarch of doing the same. A copy of this post is here. Organism Font   Postoji tvrdnja da je Byuu bio'doxed, then harassed in real life. This is also false. Nobody knows who Byuu is. Even after years, nobody knows his last name. Nobody knows where he lives. Nobody knows where he works. He is completely anonymous and even now it is not possible to do a wellness check on him. Byuu emailed me before posting his tweet chain. You can read it here. In it, he attempted to exort me. Byuu claimed that if I did not delete all information about him on the forum, he would kill himself and blame me. He offered me $120,000 cash. I saw this as a legally and morally dubious offer at best, entrapment at worst, so I declined. He also offered me his services helping write software for the Kiwi Farms. I told him I would have to consult an attorney regardless. He did not wait even 24 hours after his first email before closing communications and deciding to go through with his plan at 3am my time. In his emails to me, he promised a trusted friend would deliver a scan of his passport on Twitter within 5 hours of him killing himself as proof. Two days later, we still do not have this passport scan or any evidence he has killed himself besides the testimony of a Twitter user, citing an anoynmous third party. The Kiwi Farms is an entertainment site. It exists to talk about people. The site does not exist to punish people. It's not a Jigsaw-esque torture chamber to teach people the value of life. It's Internet nerds gossiping about their favorite e-celebs. In the 8 years we've been around, Byuu is the first person to name the Kiwi Farms as a cause of suicide, despite claiming not even a year ago he had no issues with his forum thread. His intentions are clear, but nothing else about this story is. If he was going to have to abandon the 'Byuu' persona and disappear anyways, why not pull this stunt? I will not be extorted. Josh <josh@jaw.sh> bclqvghgzdewy7tar78uy29ypqjwaur3ueecknln69 Font

Kad se osvrnemo na izvornu objavu YCombinator vijesti, korisnik endlessmike doista se dokazuje da je račun koji je kreiran tog dana sa samo jednom objavom i ničim drugim pripisanim računu. Ovo, u kombinaciji s e-porukama koje je Josh (zvan Null na Kiwi Farms) dao (prikazano u nastavku), [8] dao je korisnicima Kiwi Farms dovoljno sumnje da dovedu u pitanje da se samoubojstvo uopće dogodilo, pretvarajući originalni balon od 13 stranica u nevjerojatne 92 stranice.

Za: Null
Od: byuu
Datum: 26. lipnja 2021. u 12:59

Ne mogu više ovako.

Probao sam terapiju, isprobao sam sve antidepresive dostupne u Japanu, izbrisao sam cijelu svoju internetsku prisutnost još u srpnju. Pokušao sam sve, ali ništa nije uspjelo. Ne mogu prestati imati napadaje panike. Ne mogu se prestati osjećati poniženo. Ne mogu prestati provoditi svaki sat svog života brinući se o tome što će vaši korisnici raditi pored mene ili mojih prijatelja, na licu mjesta i izvan njega. Bila je to za mene noćna mora već tri godine.

Znam da sam drugačiji, ali dao sam sve od sebe da budem dobra osoba. Da učim iz svojih grešaka i da ih ne ponavljam. Da pomognem drugima gdje god mogu. Ali uvijek su me ismijavali zbog toga što sam drugačija. To je bila konstanta cijelog mog života. Nepodnošljivo je.

Ne mogu više ovako živjeti, uništilo mi je cijeli život. Stvarno ne mogu objasniti zašto me ovo tako duboko boli i znam da je iracionalno. Mogu ti samo reći da ne mogu više s tim. 'byuu' je sve što imam. Nemam prijatelja u stvarnom životu, nemam identitet izvan interneta, to je to. Nema drugog razloga za moje postojanje osim da pokušam oponašati igraće konzole za ljude. Uložio sam cijeli svoj život u ovo.

Pa ću ti dati izbor.

Ako skinete moju nit, ponudit ću vam cijelu svoju životnu ušteđevinu: 120 000 USD, od toga koliko god želite, kako god želite. Nadalje ću vam ponuditi svoje usluge kao 20-godišnji programski inženjer, besplatno. Dao sam sve od sebe u protekle tri godine da poboljšam sebe i napravim promjene za svaku točku koja se tamo kritizira. Nisam uključen u fandom ili ne-binarnu scenu i nisam bio godinama, samo sam očajnički želio da se negdje uklopim. Moja je politika centristička i držim se za sebe, svi moji računi na društvenim mrežama odavno su nestali. Nećete više čuti za mene, samo ću objaviti izdanja emulatora i to je to, inače apsolutno nema internetske prisutnosti, na moju riječ. I nastavit ću ići na terapiju da pokušam ovo preboljeti. Ovo sam ja koji te jednostavno molim sa svime što imam. Molim te daj mi priliku da prođem kroz ovo. Pobijedio si, već tisuću puta.

Ako ne, onda ću odgovoriti sa svojim doxom: skenirana putovnica, novija fotografija i dokaz da je moja, za potvrdu. A onda ću se objesiti. Živim sam, testirao sam svoju postavu s kliznim čvorom na čvrstom užetu za penjanje preko okvira vrata, proveo sam tjedne istražujući ovo, radi. Gotovo se mogu onesvijestiti uz malo napora ili nelagode, karotidne arterije je lako stisnuti. Stolica bi trebala biti sve što je potrebno. Neće iznevjeriti , ali da jest, živim na 14 katu i imam balkon. Na moju reputaciju i čast, s obzirom na to da u svojih 20+ godina na internetu nisam ikada prijetio niti govorio neistinu, dajem vam riječ da sam ozbiljan. Možete objaviti ovu e-poštu ako želite. Ipak, neću dizati veliku buku oko toga na internetu, ne brinite. Više nije važno.

Stvarno sam pokušavao izbjeći da dođem do ove točke, ali svaki dan je već predugo gori od prethodnog. Ta dva tjedna bilo je jedino vrijeme u proteklih nekoliko godina kada sam osjetio ikakvu sreću. Dakle, na vama je. Molim vas, javite mi što ste odlučili ili želite li još nešto od mene.

~ by uu

Ovaj e-mail je popraćen slikom užeta, snimkom zaslona koja navodno prikazuje bankovni račun pun gotovine i veliki izbor tableta. Null/Josh je odgovorio istom mjerom, rekavši da će morati angažirati svog odvjetnika [8] (prikazano dolje, kliknite za proširenje). Nakon ovog e-maila, nastavili su razmjenjivati ​​riječi prije nego što su objavili svoju sliku i ime, a e-poruke su završile.


  Od: Null <null@kiwifarms.net> Za: byuu <byuu@byuu.org> Datum: 26. lipnja 2021. 13:10 Vi're putting me in a very uncomfortable position. The smartest thing for me to do is simply ignore your email, but I generally try to be nice to people. Every word that I say in reply to you will eventually be used against me. If I help you, I've censored my website and my users may be upset. If I don't help you, I could be under investigation due to your actions. Even if my users don't care, accepting money as you've offered could be a violation of some extortion laws. I will have to consult at least one of my attorneys regarding the criminality of this issue no matter what. Though in follow-up, why does this small discussion thread bother you so much? If you're in Japan, taking medication, and making enough money to have $120,000 in liquidity laying around, what does the Kiwi Farms deprive you of to make it worth that much money or your life? I don't see anyone on the thread talking about hurting you, so I don't understand what you mean by "what they'll do next". Font Terrestrial plant

Vanjske reference

[1] Byuu – byuu.org

[dva] Farme kivija – Byuu Thread

[3] KiwiFarms – Byuu Odgovori

[4] Ycombinator – Endlessmike

[5] Google dokumenti - ocjena

[6] Twitter – ocjena

[7] Kiwi stranica s pogreškom – 'Josh': nepopravljivo

[8] KiwiFarms – Null